the freaky shomai world

shomai_ubaldo

my life after the trauma has been entirely different from the way i used to have. i think that no matter what i do it will never just be the same again.

________the start....____________

one afternoon, as i rode the cab, i suddenly felt the urge to vomit. i thought that after throwing up, i'll be perfectly fine, but i was wrong. it was just the beginning of something more terrifying.

from the school up to cubao (in gateway), the vomiting continued. it was like hell for me. but i tried not to loose control of the situation so i still pretended that i was okay.

after several hours, i alighted from the cab. unfortunately, the vomiting hasn't ended yet. it continued until i wanted to be anywhere but there. while i was in that desperate situation, there was this guy who took my belongings. as in my big bag with gifts from the teachers' day celebration and with the different sets of test papers that i was about to check.

i was in front of mercury drug asking for help but no one lent his hand for a help. i crawled from the outside of the store going inside to ask for help. but instead of helping, they even gave me a look of disgust as if i'm a moron puking in front of people on purpose. i asked the mercury drugstore guard to look for the bad guy who took my bag, but he tol me that "alangan namang lumabas ako para LANG sa 'yo?" it was like a shot of morphine that suddenly made me immobile. i never thought how rudely i would be treated by these people who are supposed to help people who are in need because they're the guards....

_________the end..._________

after all these things that happened to me, i'm still under trauma. although i was hospitalized for days and is physically cured, some things cannot be simply cured by medicines or cannot be eradicate by shots of morphines or anesthesia.

i am hoping that i'll be cured from this terrible nightmare. asap.

shomai_ubaldo

 i am confidently sure and absolutely certain that all teachers hate computing grades. except if that teacher is a masochist. i remember a former professor telling me that it has never failed to cross her mind the idea of quitting her job each time she checks test papers, records these awful bulk and compute the grades of her pesky pupils. i'm sorry. i made some enhancements regarding her statement: she didn't state "pesky" i have decided to add it since it is in context of her tone during that time. see? even the pillars of the education industry (hey wait, is education an industry?) feel the agony of sitting for long hours reading essays that could have serve as an instructor's ticket to death... then in the end, after all one's effort has been exerted, that poor thing will be accused of being UNFAIR? oh come on, you don't even have the chance to glance at the students' names, since all you see are numbers! how can you be unfair there?!  

i suck at checking papers. it has been my habit to overlook (simply ignore? no!!!) some mistakes of my pupils for no apparent reason. i guess i'm just plainly exhausted.

i haven't even entered a thing on my computerized record... and i'm ought to submit the grades next week. uhmm... one more thing: i'm not yet done checking...

after this gruelling process, i SWEAR that i'll watch a movie!

shomai_ubaldo

 i am confidently sure and absolutely certain that all teachers hate computing grades. except if that teacher is a masochist. i remember a former professor telling me that it has never failed to cross her mind the idea of quitting her job each time she checks test papers, records these awful bulk and compute the grades of her pesky pupils. i'm sorry. i made some enhancements regarding her statement: she didn't state "pesky" i have decided to add it since it is in context of her tone during that time. see? even the pillars of the education industry (hey wait, is education an industry?) feel the agony of sitting for long hours reading essays that could have serve as an instructor's ticket to death... then in the end, after all one's effort has been exerted, that poor thing will be accused of being UNFAIR? oh come on, you don't even have the chance to glance at the students' names, since all you see are numbers! how can you be unfair there?!  

i suck at checking papers. it has been my habit to overlook (simply ignore? no!!!) some mistakes of my pupils for no apparent reason. i guess i'm just plainly exhausted.

ti haven't even entered a thing on my computerized record... and i'm ought to submit the grades next week. uhmm... one more thing: i'm not yet done checking...

after this gruelling process, i SWEAR that i'll watch a movie!

shomai_ubaldo

hanging on is such an optimistic way to describe what i am going through right now. i am hanging on the terrible results of the weirdness of my thyroid hormones.

i am hanging on the harsh realities of life... that life sucks and some people suck!

i hate to be lean towards the darkness of pessimism since i know how can my world go possibly wrong if i'll be vexed at all times. however, i am just a mortal being bearing limitations that i must controll.

this "hanging in there" feeling really sucks....

i hope i could terminate it with pride like how i ended the poor life of a stunningly huge cockroach that haunts me a few days ago.